Monday, May 21, 2012

The silent cry...



As darkness nears
I feel the bitter air
Invade my lungs.

My breathing labors
As the night's chill
Sucks the life out of me.

Slowly, I drift away
Light-headedness fills my soul
My every move a mechanical dream.

I am fading fast
Fading into a world of blackness
A world of death.

Haunting laughter echoes in my ears
Ringing louder, louder still
I cover my ears - the pain too intense.

I let out a scream,
Panicked and shrill,
But the silence engulfed me and nobody heard...
You let go of my hand
You drifted away
Holding on to hope
I followed your way
Each passing hour
Each moment that speeds
I dream of you
Right next to me
I wake every morning
With a fistfull of dreams
Only to see it disseminate through my fingers
And I'm lost...

Inhalation...


Kissing sounds by curtain pairs on the window,
Taste of her lips , teeth and saliva when she smiles,
Her manicured nails,
Dull boring sound from the television, scratching and removing the
velvet algae accumulated on the surface of perception
Burning taste of water,
Numb silence of the ice cubes,
Piercing pain in the stomach, slimy and grey resembling an old sin;
slowly devouring the core of existence,
All going up and down - rhythmic yet strenuous like fluorescent
yellow images of a electrocardiogram; fading away into bluish white haze.

confused and composed

I know you are not good for me...But it's worse without you...even when I don't want you...I end up needing you...you are my favouri...