And I smile...

I close my eyes against the tears
And push all thought from my mind
In an effort to stop the pain
But inside I feel the cry resound
As it echoes within me
And clamping my jaw tightly shut
So the screams cannot break free
I feel the rip inside my soul
As every denial rages out
I clench my fingers, nails digging in
Refusing still to shout
A burden I bear all on my own
A secret none can see and know
With a smile that lies, I greet the world
While I crumble inside of me...