Retreat...

I retreat into a world of calm
A world created out of desperation
and cowardice
I'm all alone in my reality
There will be no betrayal
or abandonment,
for I'll never let you in
I float on a cloud of disinterest as
your offers of help go unanswered
In my world I need no one
No lovers, no friends,
no higher power
My world would only frighten you
Beneath the placid calm of
consciousness lies an underworld
of bitterness, rage, mistrust
Madness awaits
Leave me alone on my cloud of calm
and I may come back to you
Push me and I'll fall...