Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Please Fatty...


As soft winds sweep away the days
I look back on life through a haze.
Remember playgrounds, parks and friends,
In childlike gaze that never ends.
The laughter in a game of catch,
Shall memory ever attach...
To innocence in youthful eyes,
Catching the ball to your surprise.

I recall my first bike, first wreck,
Who picked me up, said, "What the heck?"
Convinced me to give one more try,
While, knees skinned, I forgot to cry.
Just the joy knowing she was there,
Making her proud my only care.
There was nothing I couldn't do,
My heart held fast that to be true.

Though teenage years were kind of rough,
I sure wasn't too big or tough.
You taught me to defend what's right
And never back down from a fight.
So I learned the hard way to stand,
Still, with each lump, I found your hand.
Drawing from you an inner strength,
And stubborn pride of equal length.

But there the line of fate was drawn,
As though I blinked and you were gone.
I found myself facing the sun,
Not a girl, not a lady, sister-less, one.
Eyes blinded by a void inside,
I could not live, you had died.
Alas finding it to be true,
I could do nothing without you.

Please, Fatty, today just hear my call,
I'm sorry that I dropped the ball.
My life is wrecked, my knees are skinned,
My emotions undisciplined.
I can't get up although I try,
Please don't be upset if I cry.
Though I can't fight what I can't see,
Please, Fatty, say you're still proud of me...

Monday, January 23, 2012

I'll love you to the bitter end...


Thinking of you - acid rain falls -
or are those tears which burn
fiery paths of hurt down my
face and on my neck - where I
can't swallow or breathe - can
this choking be my end? Yes -
but the pain has just begun
as the heart thirsts for love
but only soaks in anguish - which
drains it of life - tearing
a jagged scar - a raw wound
open and screeching - echoing
through a tortured mind -
then time is the enemy -
all that remains
is a skeleton of
agonistic spirit -
singing a haunting melody -
"I'll love you to the bitter end."

Begone screams of silence, harbingers of pain
Cloaked in isolation, you mock in harsh disdain
My soul is torn asunder, I curse you, God of Hell
As you pierced my tortured soul, what horrors I befell.
You spoke of quiet solitude, to tempt me to your lair
Then lanced me in my troubled heart, to depths of dark despair
Nemesis, I beg of you, rise up in righteous ire
Protect me from Hell's eternal fire
With all my voice I scream to you, protect me from the night
Alas, in forlorn desperation, I journey to the light
Banished to mind's Coventry, I heed the demon's call
Beckoned by the silent screams, I enter Dante's hall.

Shadows...


An unnoticed identity clouded,
restless beneath your feet
sorrow life years buried in dirt
billions of cares unforgiven.
Scar a lifeline on granite stone
living wasted nothings
These unspoken distant calls repel,
dying seeds of hateful notes
Use nitrous pins to expose
this evil flesh inside
revealing impure fragile wings
that can't ever be hidden
Yourself seen towards judgement
flow an ocean of tears seeping
downwards to Hell.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

I am heartbroken
My self-respect ruined
My ego crushed completely
Neither trust is to be spared

You robbed me of all I had
My life I shared with you
My love I showed to you
My dreams I dreamt with you

People do what you did to me
Only to those they hate
or the ones they wish to die
Please tell me now
In which category do I lie

I hope you are happy always
And my existence not a hindrance anymore
Coz I have died many-a-times now
And you cannot rape me anymore

Written by somebody I love and hurt terribly....if you are reading this will never put you through that again....i know I've said it many a times....but will do all it takes to prove it to you...   

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

You and me all eternity...

Lost in the world of thought
Just you and me here
Dreaming of what could be
of words unsaid
Of feelings not expressed
a regret that lasts for ever more
you me and all of eternity
an abyss of restrained hopelessness
An emotional cavity
A blissful existence
You and me all eternity....

Saturday, December 3, 2011

A Kiss....


would you kiss me tonight
so soft
so gentle
arouse deep feelings
please, make it so sensual
can you feel a kiss without your heart
so warm your lips, I felt them part
no words can be spoken, the meaning is true
that kiss will last forever
it’s only for me and you
a kiss from the heart

confused and composed

I know you are not good for me...But it's worse without you...even when I don't want you...I end up needing you...you are my favouri...