Blank yet wondering...

With each passing moment
I slip into an emotional coma....
Every thought an expression undeterred
A mysterious sense of agony
Eating away into a mindless purpose
Sifting through every motion emotion
Reliability of non existence
Torn from within
A duct taped smile
Knowing all that is beyond logic
And yet I stand here painting
Myself red with the irony
Of all that is me
But I know in my heart you'll be ok....

Thoughts run astray....

Pale eyes, a blank expression,
wander through clouds of indescribable dreams.
Cold mist air, surrounded isolation
flaws my occupied mind
with either hate or death.
Something certain will be for always;
change in time forbids movement.
Fearing you understands myself;
help me open up, just a little more...

Echo of a shattered soul...

Like tyrants assembled with tears
Trembling like a tomb
And singing like a statue
I am as empty as the ocean.
My blind eyes scream in silence
So this eternal echo will be known.
Given to the foils of time,
And shattered like plate glass-
You freeze within the fire.
Darkness now lives at daylight,
And shadows turn to the ghosts.
With all that shined is hollow
You imagine unconsciously.
And pretending to sleep you realize,
Nothing is what it seems...

Will you run into my arms the first time you see me,
Just as you whispered to me over the phone,
When my eyes, red from the sleepless night, anxious to see you in reality
Hides its beauty?
Will you embrace me so it feels like forever,
Though the smell of cheap perfume diffuses all over,
And my clothes worn, having refused to be adorned
By whom I'm scorned?
Will you love me tomorrow as you do today,
When I’m lost for words, with nothing to say,
Overwhelmed at the thought that you chose me
From the many hunters, all armed in their beauty?
Will you still love me when I have loved you so much,
That all I do is stand in wait to satisfy your desires in a rush,
And my olive-brown skin no longer glows, but wrinkles
From life’s blows?

I love how we've got an open relationship....
Telling each other exactly how we feel,
Telling me to always be real.
I love how you can make me smile from so many miles away,
Holding on to every word you say. ...
I love how I can act like the total geek that I am...
You bring so much joy,
And you did right from the start.
Sometimes I wonder is this a dream, is this true?
You came to me at a time I was blue...
Damn babe can you be any more perfect?
Ever since that night, you changed my life,
I’m dying to be your wife....
I love how we are not afraid to try new things,
Accepting whatever life brings.
I love how we have so much in common.
I love how you see beyond what others see,
The real me...
We understand each other on a different level.
Babe you and I are so random.
But besides the point,
I’m so grateful to be a part of your life.
Loving me like no other has before,
And I could never ask for anything more.
To make a long story short,
I love everything about you and our relationship…
I love you with all my heart…

When I first spoke to you 
I felt like I had known you forever, 
Telling you my secrets 
And what I didn't want ever. 
You listened to me I bet you thought I'd never end, 
Who would have thought 
We would become more than just friends. 
Over a few days time, I got to know the real you... 
A boy so caring and gentle, 
With a heart so true... 
You've survived your life 
With hurt and loneliness by your side. 
I told you I'd never leave 
Because of the feelings I have inside... 
I know you, like no one I have ever known, 
And sometimes I wonder What I'd do if you were gone? 
So I have decided Time answers all... 
I know its meant to be 
And time will remove the wall... 
I love the way we are together, 
You can always make me smile. 
Meeting you has changed my life 
And I really love you so, 
The feelings I feel for you I am never letting go... 
Remember I'll love you always 
As I know you will too...

Erratic drawings....

Living in daze
This morning half awake
Drawing and scratching
Through all that has been
Erasing the past
Figuring out the future
Standing on a land that has not yet been formed
Illustrating sketching the has been
Nothing to look forward to
Nothing to hold on to
Living in a dark disdain
All I got is my sanity
And even that seems to fade...